some thoughs

So I was just reading the April Ensign and there's like a million articles about making the marriage decision. Not always the topic you want to read about when you're single and living in Provo, but they actually pertained perfectly to my own little relationship situation that I have right now because they were all so focused on faith. Its so easy when you've been dating for almost a decade to really get discouraged and lose hope that anything even remotely resembling a healthy relationship will actually come your way. But I'm just incredibly grateful that right now, I'm in a place where I'm not scared or fearful or hopeless. I know that even though every relationship I have has ended in heartache, anger, and even betrayal (I know that word sounds dramatic but so true), I've been lucky enough to have teeny tiny little glimpses of what will be someday. And I know that even though I don't want to get hurt again, its always worth it to give it another try. I never know how it's going to end, or even what the beginning or middle is going to look like. But I do trust the Lord. I do know that every experience He gives me really is for my good, as long as I continue to follow Him. Even the really sucky, really painful, really I never ever want to do that again experiences. I'm really grateful I've had those experiences because I've learned so much about who I am, and one part of that is that I can get through them. Only because I have a Savior who loves me. I know that I can always move forward with faith, I can always try, I can always work towards what I want, because with Him, I can do anything.

Oh and this is a random picture of my tater-tot shaped octopus. I'm in the process of naming him.